I miss that freeform, that ignorance of story structure, that pure joy in discovering the story and where it would take me. I wrote four novels that year and started several others.
Since then? I've been learning the craft, revising, polishing, taking workshops, establishing a social media base, rewriting, and more rewriting.
Like Marcie Winters in my upcoming book HER SCOTTISH CEO, I have a dream and I'm working hard to reach it. Also, like Marcie, I've had disappoinments, but I set them aside and I push on. Though, it would be nice to have a handsome Scotsman like Greg McInnis on the journey with me...
I still can't wait to get home after work, get through dinner and dishes and close myself in my office. In fact, I spend may unproductive moments at work (when I'm waiting for the computer to catch up with me or I'm doing a task I know so well I don't need to keep my mind on it) thinking about whichever of my WIPs are calling out to me. I send myself notes by email. And even with HER SCOTTISH CEO, which will be published soon, I think of more ways to improve it, more ways to clarify a scene.
And I can't wait for that day when I can again let the works flow freely, but with the knowledge to do it right in the first place. I feel closer to that day every day.